Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Trying to Keep On Track

Something I am struggling with right now at this very moment is keeping on track. There's several factors affecting it but I know that the mass majority of it is the pure and simple change and fatigue my brain is currently under.

I have found that I have to make lists, not just normal lists of "do the laundry", "cook supper", etc. But detailed lists like, "get the clothes from the bedroom", "sort laundry", "put laundry in the wash", etc. It's frustrating but it's easier than backtracking a dozen times just to get through the process of starting a load of laundry. I do not process sequences well anymore and when I'm tired it is even worse.

I am also fighting motivation issues. Despite having all of these things listed out, I have to fight myself to do just one piece of them. When I do get motivated, I find that I tire easily and that I'm exhausted for days afterwards. This is what I am currently suffering from. I had a really good day on Sunday and I got a lot of things done, however, this week I've been near dead at work. I've barely kept my eyes open and by the time I get home, all I want to do is sleep. Luckily, this is my last day of work this week and I'll get to stay home and rest tomorrow.

When you have to keep track of everything from work, to home, to your son's school, to medical bills, to things that need done... it's hard on anyone but it's near impossible when you are also fighting a healing and aching brain.

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